I have a love/hate relationship with change and big decisions. I am thrilled by new things but am also quite happy with a normal routine. I'm a Taurus, and we avoid change at all costs. Big decisions are a whole different beast. When I'm faced with a life-changing decision, everything goes wonky for me. When I went away to boarding school: exciting change but lots of anxiety. When I had to pick a college: I mentally shut down for a bit with how overwhelming it was. Picking a career path: total nerves.
I've done LOADS of research. I've studied Alaska climate regions. I've researched school districts. I've read negotiated agreements, studied school websites, and followed news reports. I've found dozens of Alaskan teacher blogs and read every post on every one of them. I've reached out to current Alaska teachers and fellow LSMSA alumni for advice and opinions. I even have a current coworker who used to teach in Alaska who I've chatted with.
I know this is what I want to do. Do you ever feel like God and the Universe are dropping hints all over the place? I went to a local book sale yesterday and found a young adult book from the perspective of a Yup'ik girl. I later stumbled upon an Alaskan alphabet book with a Girdwood, Alaska sticker on it. I've spent the last couple of weeks teaching about Arctic animal adaptations, highlighting Alaska frequently.
Right now, my nerves are about whether I'll make the right choice. I've been told districts offer contracts at the Anchorage Fair, and that I should be prepared to accept one. It's not totally uncommon to be offered more than one contract. The "what ifs" running through my head about potentially having to choose between multiple offers are numerous.
All I can do now is finish preparing my portfolio, getting my resumes printed, and decide what I want to wear. My gut instincts have never led me wrong before, and I'll just have to trust them when the time comes!
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